I sit in front of the white screen, furiously typing away again - this time with a tired soul and even more weary mind. Four months are too short a time in our entire lifetime; four months come across as insignificant and fleeting to some, not long enough to be etched into our minds as memories. But it is not the duration that matters, right? Even a day, a whole 24 hours can change your life, what more 120 days?

I don’t care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don’t know
The radio’s on, you tuning me out,
I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me down
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try

Mar,

i will miss you when you leave and you will eventually receive my random text messages, again.

You wouldn't understand, but it's okay.

el submarino amarillo says:
sej do wat
Yting; says:
3 essays ah
just the struktur
el submarino amarillo says:
why u din tell me
u bugger
Yting; says:
so i guess...points only
hahahahhah
i forgot la dei!
el submarino amarillo says:
BUGGER!
Yting; says:
hanif wan
el submarino amarillo says:
nvm la
tmr then
Yting; says:
YOU LA BUGGER
el submarino amarillo says:
hanif wan weds only got ma
u scared wat
dum bunny
go eat ur carrots
Yting; says:
hahahahahahahahaha
excuse me?And yes, he did draw the carrot in msn. Friends. Lol.


Another one. A whole basket! ;D Just to make me happy and ward away evil evil people. Chongyen, thank yous!

Antartica

Sometimes i wake up, thinking i could take on the world and conquer my heart's desires for the day. Sometimes i wake up, thinking i cannot face the world today (not today) - the overwhelming emotion to just hide underneath my comforter brings this inexplicable sadness that i do not want to confront. Sometimes i laugh, for no reason, for a reason, for the simplest and most complex reasons i come up with, i laugh - genuinely, wholeheartedly and blissfully. Sometimes, other times, i plaster a fake smile so that convenient excuses do not have to be made on why it's a bitter day; perhaps, i should start living on a transparency with notes written over it so that i can have some guidance on why, even when i am in a room filled with people, i still feel alienated, i still am an outsider and i still have to live in this bubble of contradictions i put myself in.

.

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

For someone who hates falling in love, you say the ily's quite often. And no, i don't mean it in a judgmental or offensive way, it just makes me wonder - what happened that got you here?

P I N H O R N
:Never say die:
The hard work that everybody is putting in has to pay off.
I am not surprised about what you said about him today. I am used to it.

If this is the definition of life,

Yesterday.
*pm

Smoky Jack
5 rounds 'round Bkt Dumbar
Coffee Bean; coffee session.
Car Ride
Conversations.

"84% of highschool sweethearts get back together eventually."
"Are you in the 84 or 16 category?"
"...I guess 16..."
"I know mine's definitely 16"

People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given the chance to see how special that someone really is.

He who does not weep does not see

Samantha: [Voice over] Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore?
If you were suddenly gone, how would your world react?
Whatever you imagined is wrong.
There's nothing romantic about death.
Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and dark and bigger than all of us.
And pain is like a thief in the night.
Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and faith and love.
I didn’t know Quentin Fields but I’m jealous of him because I see how his absence has affected the people that did know him so I know that he did matter to them. And I know he was loved.
People say Quentin Fields was a great basketball player.
Graceful. Fluid. Inspiring.
They say on a good night it almost seemed as though he could fly.
And now he can.

Lucas : Have you ever wondered what marks our time here?
If one life can really make an impact on the world...or if the choices we make matter?
I believe they do.
And I believe that one man can change many lives.
For better...or worse.

Essentially & obviously, about
ONE TREE HILL.