♥ my shrek

You're the best, as always. :)

They strut with their skinny asses and skanky clothes down the malls when you were too busy pouring over your books and meticulously counting numbers so that the A's will be in your hands. Sometimes you come across pictures of them with boys (entirely too close) getting drunk in clubs or some party where their rosy pink cheeks (thanks to the alcohol) and beautifully startling features still stand out amidst the drunken stupor and lost decencies. In school, they have the best stories to tell - escapades, adventures, dirty jokes, jokes, latest trends and boyfriend problems - and we, the nerdy lifeless ones stare listlessly, half listening to their droning, half wishing we were that brazen or gutsy. Sometimes i wish i had the courage to go up to the guy i like and ask if he would like to go out with me, like what those girls would do - just for kicks. But now i look back, and laugh at the silliness, at the impermanency. So what if those girls were the life of the party or did things nobody else was doing - smoking, drinking, flings - all of that come down to nothing now, they are dust, ashes, on a hill of forgotten life, in an abandoned chapter. We have all move on. And for the rest of us, so called nerds in high school, we are still moving on, still pouring over books and stuffs like that with a purpose, a dream, a vision - but those popular girls? Where are they now?

It is not always easy, but it's okay.
Because i love you.
Just make sure you wash the dishes properly when you're at my place next time, okay?
*winks.

-runs away-

One step closer

But still lost.
Closing in.
And the only person who can help is myself.
Time to get a move on? Definitely.

Yes, i realised.

Better three hours early, than one minute late.

Myself.

7 years and still counting.

Yesterday night was spent by the pool - cool and quiet - in a place i am not obliged to divulge, talking to two of my closest friends yet. These kinda conversations are always enriching and soul-satisfying because, we have been through so much with each other, it's all laid on the table, naked and bare; there's nothing to hide anymore. We are who we are with each other. You don't often see the 360 degress laughter that Mad gives out, or the crazy almost child-like(ok, fine fine, retarded is more like it :P) gestures that Karmun comes up with - but with each other, we are all of that and more. Friends. It is a weighty word, taken for granted most of the time. But friends, they make all the difference, so know that, i love you. *runs around happily*

Ve Wen! Know that you are deeply missed and i am sorry we are both so busy with our own lives and so faraway pulak, sigh, i hope we can catch up soon. I miss you and i love you!

:)

Don't overtire yourself k? (Not like you read my blog, but still)
:)

The boyf is busy with work, while the girlf is trying to get busy with studies.
Status : failing, thus far.

life lessons.

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13.. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15.. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?"..
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Drums :)

I sit in front of the white screen, furiously typing away again - this time with a tired soul and even more weary mind. Four months are too short a time in our entire lifetime; four months come across as insignificant and fleeting to some, not long enough to be etched into our minds as memories. But it is not the duration that matters, right? Even a day, a whole 24 hours can change your life, what more 120 days?

I don’t care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don’t know
The radio’s on, you tuning me out,
I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me down
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try

♥

I felt a little lost, recently. Can't really say when the feeling started. I didn't keep tabs. But it feel like a slow song, one that you enjoy at the beginning and then it gets draggier and draggier until you feel like just switching the whole track to something else, something a little more different and more vibrant - something that is able to take you someplace else.

I want to feel alive. I want to feel excitement bustling through my veins, life stories of others come alive in my own- i don't want two dimensional pictures of white papers inked with faded black words. Don't want minds to be crusted with distractions and hammered with heavy, substantial knowledge that sometimes make us lose sight of the things that matter. Knowledge has a way of doing that to us; seeping into our nerves, making us want more so that we are drunken with it - the rest fades away.

I don't want to be taken for granted.